When we are kids, we believe that we can do, be, and have anything we could ever want, there were no limits. I was that kid. I had dreams of becoming an entrepreneur and working in the hair and beauty space, becoming an engineer, and an actress. I knew that I could do it all, and no-one could tell me differently. I had so much faith in my ability to accomplish my goals that I have done just about everything that I dreamed of (except becoming an actress). As I reflect on my life, I have crushed almost every single goal that I have set for myself and my life, all because I believed that I was the able and good enough.
In 2005 I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis (R. A.) while I was a student at Clark Atlanta University in Atlanta, GA. The onset of the illness was very scary because I had never suffered any major illnesses. I will never forget waking up one day in my dorm room with my legs in so much pain and my feet were so swollen that I couldn’t even fit in my size eight shoes. I went to the campus nurse weekly to figure out what was going on, until finally, they had a specialist send me to Grady hospital to give me a diagnosis. I was told that I had an autoimmune disease and I would have it for the rest of my life. I would have to take medication daily for there was no cure.
I was relieved but also devastated when I heard the news, but I accepted that this was something I had to live with forever and I would make the best of it. I experienced flair ups, achy and stiff joints, and pain over the next ten years until one day the Holy Spirit challenge me. I heard him whisper to me “you have prayed for everything else, but you have never asked for your body to be healed.” The Holy Spirit was right. I had never asked God to heal me simply because I didn’t have faith that I could be healed. The doctors told me that I would live with R.A. for the rest of my life and I believed them. I had heard of God “miraculously” healing others, but I didn’t believe it for myself.
I remember hearing the pastor preach that if you pray the living word of God, then God must answer your prayers. I began to research scriptures in the bible that talked about healing, and I wrote them down in a notebook. Every single day, I’d wake up, and I would recite those verses out loud. Not only did I pray the word of God, but I shifted my faith to believe that I too could be healed. A few weeks later in a dream, God told me to go to a healing meeting hosted by Evangelist Reinhard Bonnke. God said that I would be healed at that meeting and that I would learn how to heal others.
I was obedient, and my family and I canceled our plans for that weekend and attended the meeting, and every single thing God had shown me was true. The next day I found out I was pregnant with my son Cue, and shortly after becoming pregnant my doctors advised me to stop taking my R.A. medicine. Do you know that haven’t had to start back taking my medicine to date! God actually healed my body from R.A. just as he said he would. I had to have enough faith to (1) believe that he could do it, (2) believe that he could do it for me, (3) be obedient with what he instructed me to do and (4) continue to pray until my healing manifested.
This was my first time experiencing a supernatural healing, little did I know that God was going to use me to heal my husband from depression that he had been battling with since he was a child (I will tell you all more about that later). I want to tell you that God is still in the business of performing miracles for those who have faith. Whatever it is that you are asking God to do for you, your family and your business – your first step to receiving is believing. For faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. [Hebrews 11:1]
Father God, I love you, adore you, honor you, worship you, and lift up your holy name. You are a beautiful, and magnificent God that can do all things. For just as you have created the heavens and the earth, you also created me. You are my father, my provider, my waymaker, my healer, and you love me to no end.
Lord, I repent for any unbelief I may be harboring. I repent for giving up and for believing that you can’t perform miracles for even me. I ask that you forgive me for having little faith, and for not coming to you for all things. For your word says that whatever I ask for in prayer, if I believe that I have received it, and it will be mine. [Mark 11:24]
I also repent for only going through the motions when asking for _______________ for my business. For when I ask, I must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. [James 1:6]
Father, I pray that out of your glorious riches you may strengthen me with power through your Spirit in my inner being, so that Christ may dwell in my heart through faith. And I pray that I will be rooted and established in love. [Ephesians 3:16-17]
May you, Lord of hope, fill me with all joy and peace as I trust in you, so that I may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. [Romans 15:13]
I ask that you remove all unbelief and lack of faith from my heart. I will believe in you even when my faith is tested through trials because I know that the testing of my faith produces perseverance. [James 1:3]
For it is with your heart that I believe and I am justified, and it is with my mouth that I profess my faith and I am saved. [Romans 10:10]
Father, give me the courage and strength to move in obedience in alignment with my faith for, in the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead. [James 2:17]
In Jesus name, I pray, Amen